The Times Have Changed

The times have changed and thats for sure.
And it hurts for some reason, but i guess im getting use to it im so use to people coming and going from my life. some come back, and some i never see again, some im so close one day and then i pass with out a greeting. weird aint it.
I miss my friends, even though they arnt true friends and i know this. i guess im settling for what i get. sometimes i think i would have better friends if i would have just stayed a nerd and stopped caring about what people though. fuck popularity its such bullshit and i wish i could show kids that but in a young mind thats all that matters, at least it was in my case.

PHOTOGRAPHY , DIGITAL

ONCE AGAIN. My pictures are blown up, so to see the hole thing you must click on it =]

heres some photography of mine, this is all digital. this year im experimenting in the dark room, and i must say it is deffinitly growing on me. i love the feeling of devoloping my own phote from scratch. its so old school to me. i love it.



sunflower Session








8th period, at Thomas Stone. the only beautiful part of my day last year. Only thing ill miss about that school was seeing this everyday






day With justin&the bus









Gods waiting Room











My Home, Alabama. i miss it soooo much.

Childs Work

hahahhahahahahahah.
this is the firrst canvus i brought to school and my art teacher looked at me and said.
"That looks like shit." ha i loved his honesty, and at the time my feelings were hurt but im glad he told me now. i went from painting to painting with mixed media to just mixed media haha. he pulled me back into the zone by saying that, so thankyou mr.churchill.

i still think it would be cute in a little kids room.

Dark Vs. Light

the back ground was the first canvus I experimented with oil, i was getting the gist of blending colors with oil. and in the end i was bored with it, so i hotglued a pannel to it.

Lack Of respect/love

This was during a period of last year, angry of course, but learning.i went all out with the mixed media. I attempted to make the mixed media more personal, but im not happy with the turn out. good concept in my opinion but not a good out come

Battles With Oil

oil and Cassidy dont mixed well, at least it seems that way. maybe its just lack of an experienced oil painting teacher, i dont know but i can never seem to get the hang out it. but this is my first attempt at oil. Not to bad. i painted over acrylic so its cracking =[ i recently got some wood, so im going to experiemnet with the oil on wood, wish me luck.

Red Handed

When i got caught by the police for possesion, i was so overwelmed with emotion that i was considerd a juvinille delinquet for having a little pot, i toke my anger out on canvus once again and this came out haha, this was the first painting that made peple realize, this girl is weird. hahah. god i love that.

Broken hearts in the Independent

This painting is unfinished. All of my paintings are unorganized, lack structure and in the end always turn out abstract. I like it like that though. People always ask me "What is that?" or "What are you doing?" ha and i never have an answer and never really know what its going to be untill in half way finished. But i do know what i want this painting to be summed up as. I want to top it off with some polaroids being burned ( the ones at the bottum) so they will fade with the hearts on the left.

Amanda

This was my first painting i painted that made me come to my sences and relize painting isent just "pretty" or "cool looking" it was the first posstive harmless hobbie i had to relieve my stress. This was the first painting i did when i really new that this is what i wanted to do for the rest of my life. Amanda my first real love had a big impact on my life and when we broke up in stead of doing negitive things to show my emotion, i painted and used mixed media of her letters and photographs of roses. Although im not to happy with the way it turned out, i love it just because when i look at it, it brings me back to that strong emotion i felt.

Love Vs. Season

I guess my pictures are to big, so you may have to click on the picture to open it up on the photo bucket website. this was a larger canvus i was experimenting with. I am very happy with the way this turned out. I was flipping through a magizeen ( warning: i cant spell) and i was looking at all the lotion or bathing suit ads> I think the structure of a womens body is beautiful, so therefore i wanted to create a painting involving a womens body and in the same breath show symbolism with an ex girlfriend, possitive venting i guess you could call it. The last frame in the right corners is two figures kissing, that was the season we meet and if you observe the other women figures you may me about to come up with your own interpretation ( which i would love to hear!) this was a 3rd attempt of mixed media.

Work Blues

i painted this is a three hour period at work, between answering phones and checking member into the health club i manage to finish. this served more as a test of how much i can get done under pressure of time. This painting seems to be alot of peoples favorite, but its my least favorite. funny how it works out that way.

Failed Attempts

This was during a breadth section. Im not to proud of it. But it is mine, so iv devoloped some sort of pride. This was during a period of last year ware i was lacking inspiration and creativity, and it was my first attempt at using mixed media.

here I am

So i was told to get a blogg. im still unsure of how to work this, but hopefully i can use this as an oppurtunity to get my art out there. Iv been contemplating selling my paintings, holding on to them, or possibly looking into some gallerys. I was told to never sell my paintings, which works for me since im so attached to all of them. ha, even the ones that arnt that good but.

This is my first painting i painted in Ap Art last year, thanks to the help of Mr. Churchill & Miss. Crowley this is what came out =]